I can't remember the last time we kissed
I can't remember the last time we danced
But oh your eyes are still emblazed
In the mirror of my soul
Though it's hard to see through the frosted glass
I can't remember the last time that we sang and shouted out loud
Proclaiming our love to the world
I must confess that I still love you
Even though I cannot tell you now
And as hard as it seems at times
The love for you will never run out
What scoffing we endured we have conquered
Shown the world who we truly are
I can't remember the last time we danced
Cannot remember what you used to taste like
My memories of you are fading
You are lost and I far away
Please oh please
Please just help me out
I still love you...
The I
I stand alone
Before the tide
As is it sweeps
Burning
Towards me
Am I afraid? Do I run?
No, I do not run
But I am afraid
A Garden on Walls
And so the final dance has begun.
A waltz of sorts
Manifested from restless, love sick minds
Culled from the regrets of,
More or less,
Wallflowers
Swan Song
And though I’ll only see you once before you go
I’ll cry
I’ll cry
And even though you’ll only see me once before I die
You’ll cry
You’ll cry
Because every time you leave me
A little part of me
Picks up the gun inside and pulls the trigger
Am I forgetting the silly loves songs
That I wrote for you long ago
And how you used to feel inside
When we were still in love
And now that grace is gone
And all we’re left with is denial
I’ll still be here
Waiting for your return
Grave-bound
Ashen colors bleeding into
My heart
Tearing our memories
Apart again yet longing for
Pieces of our lives we shared
And bring back the memories of
Silly love songs
That you wrote for me long ago
When I was deafened
Hardened from the constant blows
That life threw against me
Hoping that whatever happened
I Would wake again...
Silly love songs
I’ll cry
You’ll cry before you go
Silly love songs
I’ll die
You’ll cry
With Black Ink
With black ink I can write my name
On your heart, in the sky, engrained in minds
My angel, my muse, my demon
Give unto to me
Feed me
Fuel me
With black ink I…
I can save myself
I can save her
She with all the-
She completes-
She that loves-
She that is-
She whom I-
With black ink I can convey my thoughts
With black ink I purge my mind
And she can save me
A whiteout for my sin
Were it God I would know
Were I God I could save him
With black ink he’d…
Be cured of-
Come back
to-
Stop-
Begin to-
With black ink…
Black to shadow
Gloss for sheen
The perfect casket for my thoughts
-My One Lost Sunrise-
The wind does not change my mind
About the moonlit sky
Nor do the roses on the trees ahead
Change the way I die
But for the one lost sunrise
More than a day ago
Would I be ever sinking
Into the world’s dark soul
Where can I run to escape this fate
Locked ‘round the neck of God
To where the trees of ash lay still
And the birch quietly sleeps
Sheltered from the heathen sky
I’ll lie on my back ‘til morning
And my one last sunrise
When I have lost all hope for myself
Only then am I ready to die
And though these days are often
I dream of the ones I love
Save me from my heartbeat
The pulse I labor to bear
My own soul have I carried
Upon a chain of gold
Let me lie in peace my dear
Under the shadow of the trees
Do not mourn my passing
Nor bitter my memory with tears
For all that I have fought and bled for
Is but a fleeting dream
And as all shifts to white
As all music fades
My one lost sunrise spills over the hill
Forever
And ever
And ever
watching dreams Hang my head by the rafters
So I can look out at the woods
I wish to remember
Bury my body by the river
So I can dream the dream of fishes
Holding tight to what they never knew
The Angels watch their dreams watch me
And with no one to hold my hand they turn away
As I whisper to devils and they whisper back
My head becomes my hat
To tip to prowess
My body becomes my umbrella
To open when it rains
So take me my darling
Dance with me my love
Through open doors and fancy screens
From mat to room to door to garden
As my love for you is wilting
Taking back what you owe
Going toe to toe
Fighting tooth, nail
Claws, teeth, teetering
Balancing on the edge
Ledge
Far from the bottom
Blinded by the sun
Beams of light piercing
My eyes are open and I can see
Be who I want to be
You know
You see
I’m taking back what you owe
What you didn’t see the last time we where together
What you didn’t believe when I told you that I
I have fallen from grace
Locked out outside the gates to your heart
I have fallen for you
Bury my head by the river
So I may dream the dream of fishes
Watching me watching you
Angel Dust
Sweet angel, look not beyond the sky
Think not above the clouds
But keep your eyes upon the ground
For that is where you are
Sweet angel, we all succumb to lust
Even when our hearts our pure
We cannot go beyond it's leash
And it leads us where it will
Sweet angel, dream right up to the moon
But do not drift among the stars
They are of jealous and vengeful kin
And will not suffer you
Sweet angel, our lives are that of dust
Swept about by tempered wind
Disenchanted, detached, and set adrift
But you are so much more
Sweet angel
Sweet angel, our dreams return to you
Please hear this final prayer
Sing one last time your wistful song
And set my weary soul to rest.
Sweet angel